boundaries

I feel like i need to preface this entry by saying: i have been with the bf for about 5 years [next month]-his mother doesn't like me one bit-she believes in summoning the dead-things called 'spirithelpers'-doesn't believe in medical insurance-did too many drugs in her 'hippy days'-it has taken me YEARS to get her son to set boundaries with this woman-like:when we're on a date could u not make me sit at a booth while upick up for your mom-valentines day is for lovers NOT to call and say how much you love your mother -it is NOT okay for your mom to ask you 'how long do u wait before you have sex with someone?...how long should i wait'-& last night i had to listen to him tell her 'thats RIGHT mom-i am a GROWN MAN....NO no no i am not YOUR man though....'-this blows my mind-& he wouldn't get 'into it' with her because she brings on the tears and becomes ballistic-there fore she tells ME time and time again i've ruined there relationship-to which i've given up and just say 'if i were you i'd be nicer to the woman who may have your grandchildren...'-she dogs on me about anything showing any cleavage -even turning to her son to say 'YOU let her go out like that!?!?!.....' and i was in a BIKINI on the beach in the middle of SUMMER.....meanwhile shes 55 y/o and sports bright green thongs and bends over in front of her son so they show....-disgusting right?

yet me asking him to stand up for US & to get his mom to not act like she wants a sick relationship with us has made him call me 'fat ass bitch...' '2$whore...' and much worse. i've even told my mom that the only thing i really have control over anymore IS my weight and what i allow myself to eat!

Saturday night: the bfs brother & niece came over - i made a cucumber, tomato, basil 1/2 tbsp of cottage cheese with 1/2 tbsp of evoo, 1/4 tbsp of honey, 1/2 tbsp of balsamic vinegar-delish!--It all came up that night though ,this time the bf came running in with water & a worried look and a 'are u pregnant'..i told him i had heartburn & felt woozy & since i can't mix meds with the medicine i'm on until thursday for my foot i couldn't take any ant-acids.

Sunday:i tried working out on the elliptical and it hurt too bad so i just watched my intake - the bf wanted beer so we walked to the brewery-i had half and told him to finish mine....then i made a 'chef' salad and didn't even eat half of that .....also just had a progresso light soup for 80 cals! i was really proud of myself!

Yesterday [monday]: i watched the bfs niece [her mom is in some rehab program & her father is trying to get a divorce finalized before she gets out & they want the lil girl to be out of the mix as much as possible] so i took her for yogurt, then she watched cartoons - got her to do some homework & then she begged for mac and cheese - bought it - made it...& i had a progresso light soup & a boiled egg white & some turkey seasoned with some pepper!

which brings me to today:
i found pita breads 1/2 is 80 cals-so i cut that half into 1/2
i made a turkey salad mix [light mayo, light mustard, itty bitty relish & turkey- all together about 120 cals for the portion i had] the b/f likes it and he came home for lunch
and i've had two diet cokes
tonight i'm making a spaghetti squash [i haven't touched noodles since september 2011...& u can get this to 'look' like noodles.] so i'm adding some turkey meatballs i'm baking in the over and two tablespoons of pasta sauce! so at least thats healthy!


xo
SM